Body Remembers

Dear Body,

I used to flinch when I looked at you. Not because of how you appeared, but because of what you remembered...

You betrayed me in public. You shook when I needed stillness...

I learned to hide you. To dress you in neutrality...

They told me you were dramatic. That your pain was imaginary...

I medicated you into silence. I starved you into submission...

But you weren’t the problem. You were the evidence...

You remembered what I couldn’t. You held the flashbacks...

And still—you carried me. Through every appointment...

You were never weak. You were never dramatic...

I’m sorry I didn’t protect you. I’m sorry I blamed you...

You were the first to know danger. The first to feel betrayal...

Now I see you. Not as a vessel. Not as a symptom...

I will never punish you again. I will never silence you again...

You are not here to be understood. You are here to be honored.

And I love you. Fiercely. Finally. Without condition.

—Solace Helfire

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